arrrrggg… so i had my follow up with my psychiatrist yesterday and things have not been going well these last few weeks. i’ve been using si more frequently than what i ever have in the last year and a half, and i started to slide backwards with my depression. a lot of this though has to do with my mother and all the stress from the arguments we get into. So the good news from my shrink is…. well there really isnt any good news to this…. the bad news is that she added another med to my “cocktail” and i have to go back in 2 weeks (ive never had to do that, its always been either 3 or 4) and if things arent better by then, then she is going to recommend me to the partial hospitalization program. FUCK! I do want to get better and get over this and i really dont think that it would be such a bad idea, but i cant afford to drive up there several times a week and i cant afford to take off so many days of work or miss my classes.
on a brighter note, i am waiting to hear back from a low income housing apartment building to see if i can get a place there with my dog. i think that things would be so much more relaxed if i could move out, and a hell of a lot less stressful.
well im off to bed cuz im exhausted from these last few days of staying up to burn the midnight oil and do my homework which i am desperately behind on.
