so this last week has been a pretty tough one for me. i’ve relapsed, but not as bad as it has been before and my boss chewed me out again for the second time since ive been working there for 3 years. the first time he chewed me out was two months ago… now im wondering if i should keep this job or if all the humiliation and put downs are worth it. I want to find a new job so badly because im so tired of all the drama and the shit and all the hectic, chaotic days. everyone likes to make fun of someone else behind their back… hello!!! most of us are grown up mature adults that are not in high school now… or so most of us say/think. i just feel like sadness has melted over me and smothered out all the sun light. nothing right now could make me happy or smile, except for my two dogs. im so sick of life – my job where shit continues every day and gossip and rumors spread, living in a small windowless room in a cold basement, constantly being surrounded by others when i just want to be left alone. i never thought that i would sink this low in a relapse. at least i have tomorrow off.
on a brighter side, i was motivated enough to go for a run and get out for a little bit, and tomorrow is my day off. well off to bed to start another day all over again.
Being unhappy at work is never a good thing, and it sounds like you’re in a particularly toxic environment. I’d start looking for something else if you can. I’m happy to give you a good reference if you need one!